Wednesday, September 13, 2006

i dozed of in the late night while i was doing some last minute revision. luckily, i have set my alarm to go off at 4am to study. i woke up, realised that i forgot to switch of the lights and decided to clear everything off my bed, switch off my lights and back to lalaland. lol... i'm a pig!!!

woke up super late today. managed to get everything ready in 15minutes and i reached cck earlier than tina. ooh. so proud of myself!!!

hmms... had english paper1 in the morning. followed by chemistry paper1 then chemistry paper2. think i'm going to score badly for my english... descriptive writing was always my forte but i did the question on "Teenagers are always confused, insecure and angry. Discuss." and now... i'm regretting. i wanted to write about "Describe about a friend who showed wisdom in a difficult situation." but shit it! i can't think of any situation to write on, so i decided to do the other one. i totally wrote rubbish and i didn't even meet the minimum criteria of at least 350 words. the functional wasn't too bad, but it wasn't very well written either. but what cheered me up was that i knew how to do most of the questions[not sure if they'll be correct] in the chemistry paper. thank god.

stayed in school until bing went for her frisbee training. met up wit gera and nette at the carpark. idiot me!!! i tried to be crazy for that moment, so i began to shout:
"wo hen fan ah!!! wo zhen de hen fan!!! wo yao tiao lou!!!"
haha. i just shouted it out of fun but it ended out to be venting out my frustrations.my tears started to flow down. only nette saw. then i sat behind one of the pillars and calm myself down. but gera came over and saw me crying. thanks for making me burst into tears. i've been holding my tears for a very long time. thank you my dear counsellor.
witnessed a fight there. nette was beaten up cuz of some reasons. forget it. don't wish to talk about it anymore. gera went into disappearance for a while so rong, jo and me went for a search. nette was at the carpark cooling down. blah, blah, blah... story very long, don't want to narrate it.

then 3 of us went to yt mac study first. saw chamayne and her friends. chatted and continued studying. nette came back after some time. gera came shortly. rong went down to fetch bing. gera, rong, jo and me began chatting instead of studying. they went to eat their dinner after that, and i went home...

she appeared in my life

made me crazy over her

and i don't know what to do now...

i'm bounded by all those so-called 'promises', and i don't wish to break any of them. but they are making me so fucking miserable abiding them all the time. and for the sake of those promises, i've been telling myself that i won't fall for her and i'll never fall for her.

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